Let's Get Started !

Now that you are aware of the reason why, let's focus on the future !

Berlin. 26 September. 42,195 km. Oh dear lord, why did I do that again ?! Silly masochistic girl !

Running is on my mind since about a month ago 'I have to start, it's getting closer. come on Marie you have to do that !'. Well I decided to REALLY begin my preparation last week, I know, I know, it's in 3 months ! Don't worry, my beloved friend, Guilt, is already following every step of my day and manages to be a big part of my nights too...

So here I was last Tuesday, waking up at 7 am or so, getting ready, and then... It was raining cats & dogs outside ! One step out and I was all wet, but no, I started running. And then after 15 minutes I gave up. I was full of good excuses, as always : it is raining, it is my first day I have to take it slow, I'll do better on Thursday. I managed to feel kind of okay with myself, enough to not kill myself :). And then it happened. My flatmate. That bastard. 'I heard you this morning, you did not go for long, are you going to run again after work or what ?'. I could have killed him, it drove me crazy, so many memories of my mother... So I was, how to put it not to sound like a suicidal person, kind of bumped out...

The day after, on Wednesday night, I had a preview for work, where you drink champagne and stand up in high heels for hours. Obviously I had too much champagne, and my heels were too high. I almost could not go home. I had to take a feet bath before going to bed. Running on Thursday was out of question.

It still hurt on Saturday, and well, I came back home at 5 am on the Sunday morning so no running on Sunday either :)... On Monday, it was clear my feet did not hurt anymore, I had no more excuse... But I did not go, and oh was Guilt close to me ALL. DAY. LONG. I was pissed off at myself, and took it out on anyone around me obviously (sorry Roomie)...

So today TODAY I DID go for a run, at 6 am (I literally CANT sleep, really annoying knowing that I start working at 10...). The weather was beautiful, I knew my day was gonna be calm and nothing planned for the evening.

Well I am not gonna lie, it's still was difficult. I struggled. To run 20 sorry minutes. It is ugly that I can tell you. But I will overcome the many, many, obstacles that I, often, put on myself ( weight, lazyness, parties, and so on). So I will see you on Thursday, no party, no excuse, and I WILL do better!

Or will I... ? Lol ;)